Mother

[queenrikki]

My mother is dying. I've known that since we were in the hospital, but this is the first time it's been acknowledged openly. The lady from hospice came over today and we talked about it. I want her to be as comfortable as she can be in the time she has left. A part of me is very angry with her because she smoked for thirty years and she knew this sort of thing could happen. Her dad died from lung cancer too, she should have known better. There's another part of me that wants her to go soon. She's in pain and I don't want her to suffer.

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[madeof-stars.livejournal.com]

Oh I am so so so sorry. *hugs you* *feels useless*
Just be there for her and I'll keep you in my thoughts and hope that her pain is over soon. I am so sorry you're going through this.

[queenrikki-hp.livejournal.com]

I'm trying to be there for her as much as I can, but it's very difficult. She also had a stroke and now she's very paranoid and thinks that we're all trying to poison her. I hug her a lot now and I tell her I love her and that she's been a good mother for the most part. I'm really going to miss her. And I feel really weird because I'm sad that she can't read HBP and that she'll never read the seventh book. She was always such a hug Harry Potter fan.